20 more days until the baby is due. It has been a long few weeks. I last posted that I was on bedrest and taking nifedipine because I was having contractions. Well I lasted about 3 days on the nifedipine until I couldn't stand the side effects anymore. It gave me a terrible headache and then i started getting nauseated and throwing up. So I stopped that medication but then two days later I was having cramping and contractions again so the doctor sent me back over to the hospital and they gave me a shot of terbutaline and sent me home with that medication. I was supposed to take it every 4 hours but I could barely stand it every 8 hours cause it made me jittery and shaky. So I lasted on that for about 3 days too- and didn't sleep for all 3 days because of how it made me feel. I was a huge wreck. It was an awful week and I thought I was going to go crazy or something. I just wanted to have the baby out so I didn't have to go through all those side effects. So I just dealt with the contractions after that and I think the doctor over reacted because the baby has stayed put. His head is just really low so that puts a lot of pressure on my lower uterus which i think was causing the irritation. It has just been a long few weeks because I have also been having a lot of back pain which keeps me up at night. Plus for some reason, I am now getting nauseated a lot and throwing up at times. I didn't realize that would come back at the end of my pregnancy. I am grateful that we didn't have problems getting pregnant but pregnancy has been so hard for me. I wish that I could say that I have loved it but I am counting down until it will be over. Although who knows when he is going to come. He could come anytime now but my mom says that babies don't come early in our family so I am just taking it easy and trying to entertain myself. I got tired of the bedrest thing a couple of weeks ago and just do as much activity as I can tolerate.
I did have a couple of really nice showers. My work friends were all so generous and bought us a car seat. And then my mom and sister threw a shower for me and we are pretty well set now. It was so nice to have all that support to help us get ready. We were surprised at how many gifts we have received. And I had several friends that drove a long way to be there at the shower. That meant a lot to me. My friend Cherish came over and spent a whole day helping me getting organized which was a huge help because I was feeling overwhelmed. So the room is ready and that was a huge relief.
There isn't much else exciting to report. I haven't done much but just take care of myself. I never know how I am going to feel each day. Ross has helped me so much and I am grateful to have such a supportive husband because like I said, this has not been an easy 8 months or so for me. He has two more weeks left of school before the summer break. I know that worrying about me has been distracting for him but he is just trying to finish strong.
So that is my update. Just trying to hang in there. Hopefully we will have baby pictures to post soon :)
Hamburger Helper, dinner of champions 
Anyday now! 
Hmmm? Signs of things to come8-)
6 lbs. 13 oz. Too small to be a Hawkes baby. Word around town is those newborns average 12 lbs
Hey Son! I'm your Mama (Jean w/ the doula)
Our small cutie pie. Look at the size of that newborn pacifier on him. Looks like somebody stuck a TV satellite on his mouth
Hi Dad!
Hey buddy! I got big plans for you
1st day in an isolette
Getting his hearing test later that night. Mic Check 1, 2, 3...
Waaaa! Put me back in there. Its too cold out here!
Wowzers, was he small
My turn to check you, buddy. All systems checked
Marcus to the nurse, "lady, can you give me a break? I've been through a lot already." 
Say Hi to your grandparents, Son.
Mama and Son
Matt
Grandpa getting his turn holding
Hi grandma!
Supplementing his feedings
Daddy, this car seat is too big for me
Getting wheeled out to the car. Goodbye hospital food!
Chillin' in his swing at 6 days old
My Aunt Liz
Great grandparents from Utah
Hmmm! I got them wrapped around my finger. Mwahahaha!
Smiling in his sleep. What in the world could he be dreaming of?
1st bath at home
At 4 weeks
My cutie pie wearing socks over his hands bec he keeps scratching his precious face
He loves his white noise
He loves bathtime
At 1 month with Mommy
Smiling in his sleep 
Fussy look while asleep
Oh my goodness!
